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[18 Mar 2005|11:16pm]

[see ya cowboys]
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[18 Mar 2005|09:17pm]
oh yeah ps grading period ends freaking April 6th suckas.

So I'll be back around then.
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[18 Mar 2005|09:08pm]

I have I ♥ Huckabees, Supersize me, and The Talented Mr. Ripley. to watch. >:O

speaking of movies, im applying for a job at Hollywood Videos, thusly I get to fucking watch movies all day long! :O:O:O:O:O:O

i have a myspace and i feel sooo dirty.

um, so like Im working on this little tiny book, about love, and i have a story going on in my mind about it, but i dont think anyone who looks at it will get the story im trying to potray :[

but im running out of ideas, and like, i think by the time im done i will be tired of love and ready to become the asexual and reprduction by budding child i am meant to be.

ohhhohoho suckas

when i get a decent layout up on my new journal i'll um, let ya guys know what it is. i think im going to use Alex DeLarge(i think thats his name) because me makes me feel dirty in all sorts of ways.
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[11 Mar 2005|11:31am]
i made a new journal, the move will begin once im ungrounded, aka after our easter break.

its sort of pointless considering, like, I deleted all my old entries, i just like the name of my new one better.

shhh its a secret.
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I HAVE PICTURES [05 Mar 2005|01:11pm]
This is my new haircut :] and dye job.

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[28 Feb 2005|05:13pm]
to begin i have a private entry saved below this one, that pretty much explains and is dedicated to like my one issue with myself. most people know this, if they have ever read some of my older entries. i was going to make it public, but i decided at the moment i need to keep this to myself and stop being so bitter about everything.

actually 'stop being so bitter' should probably be in the "new years resolution" list I never made up, because that is all i am these days, bitter bitter amer bitter bitter. i complain about everything, i make too much out of everything et cetera. oh look im being bitter about this too. how ironic.

anyways back onto other topics of interest. i wrote this entry yesterday, well i attempted too, but since i am not allowed on livejournal, i had to get off the page before i updated. i utterly despise being grounded. right now my only grade (yet again) that is low is my geometry grade. i have a 102 percent in biology, and a 95 (amazingly) in french, but i have a 78 in geometry. we have only taken 2 tests, and the first one i got a 56 on so, i guess i shouldnt expect much more.

other then that, my life has had little to no climax, i think the most exciting thing that had happened to me, is what i did yesterday, which was dye my hair. i had planned on making it a dark plum colour but the colour dye we decided on turned out dark and unnaturally red. i hated it last night, and for much of this morning, replying to many of peoples "ohh Maia i like your hair" with "i dont." the bitterness...haha. now i am absolutely in love with it. its quite funny.

its so odd, thursday through sunday i was very sick, and today my smelling is much more acute then usual, i mean instead of having to be invading ones personal space to smell the fact they have been smoking, i can pick it out quite easily. along with alcohol and other fine smells.

this is a question for everything i got my haircut on friday, and while sitting there, the lady who was cutting my hair, asked me the question 'what is your style?' How do you answer that, How would you answer that, and Why would you answer what you do? because i really sort of stammered out that i was in mid-style what ever the fuck that means.

oh, and i love crazy 80s dance electro retrospect music, indie rock is dead (dont worry im kidding)
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[17 Feb 2005|10:07pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]

i delete entries to fast

concerning what i do artistically
'im done trying. im done trying to make things people like. i dont know why i did to begin with. why should i care if i impress the the people sitting near me in my classes. as long as i make myself happy'

I am trying to cut down on the word 'fuck.' I'm trying to cut down on beleiving boys in my school actually like me. I'm trying to stop being so annoying ("you guys are so mean" "its only because you hate me" this i think equals a fear of rejection but whats new). I'm trying to get good grades. I'm trying to find close and good friends. I'm trying to be a better person. I'm trying to learn french well I'm trying to be happy about everything.

I'm not back, I still have 5 more weeks, I just decided to update.

[my new habits are lukewarm tea, lukewarm showers, and lukewarm love]

au revoir

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[19 Jan 2005|04:06pm]
I have an 80 in Geometry. So I'm gone again. 9 more weeks. You know what, remove me from your friends list, I dont deserve to be on it.

Anyways, ok, since there was no letter exchanging last 9 weeks, I'm going to try again. This time I'll write the letter first.
Please comment with your address, I have them screened so no one can read them but me.

I'm going to get all A's next grading period, so I'll be back then.

I hate myself.
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[07 Jan 2005|01:15pm]
I'll be back around the 25th of January, oh dear.
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[08 Jun 2004|11:10pm]
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